Absurdity

Sometimes you have to take a hard look at yourself and ask what am I becoming? Do I want to continue down this road? Right now the answer is no. I messed up at work yesterday, I got too drunk the night before and was late for work because I couldn't stand up and stop vomiting. I thought I didn't drink that much, but clearly I did. I do not want to get out of control, I don't want to lose myself, everything I've worked so hard for. I have a blessed life and am very lucky, everything in my life is good right now, and I will not fuck that up. It's time for change.