Absurdity

Life is loss. Things, people, we gain only to lose. Everything ends, there is no magic or hidden meaning or code behind everything. When I die the whole universe may as well cease to be. I think this is why we invented religion, we needed to cope with sentience and knowledge of death. But as our knowledge builds on the foundations of others and we know more and more we lose that ability to have faith, and as much as I want to believe, it's not a choice, I can't just decide to believe in something I don't believe in. I'm stuck the way I am, knowing what I know.