Journal #48: 2004-12-08
Got my report card yesterday, 69 in History, 67 in English, and a 38 in Math. Mom was pretty mad, but I just don't have the energy to really argue with her. Can't wait until Saturday, selling gift certificates and I get Samurai Pizza Cats. I don't seem to have much energy anymore, all I do now is school, work, go to WAC and play games, oh and of course music. I don't see my friends anymore. Oh well I think I can get in the high 70's in English and History, drop Computer Science next semester and take Math again. Meeting at work on Monday, 9:15, but I work that day so I don’t need to worry about getting there. Wish I was getting more shifts; I never seem to have much money. Need to update my resume, make it look more professional and get a second job. I don’t feel happy anymore, maybe for very brief periods but not as much as I used to, I used to always be happy. I just want to lie down and never have to get up again, ever. Only person I talk to at school anymore is John, and that's only cause he sits beside me in History. I want to take a long bath but I don't know if I have the time. I don't feel like I belong here anymore.